about a month ago I got summer break, and I have been with maybe.. 1 friend 5 times…
I feel so alone, lost, and confused.
What am I going to do when I am done with school? Will I do something with my life?
Will I even have any friends left?
Will I be alone the rest of my life?
Will I ever discover love?
I have this fear that I will never get a partner in my life.
I have started to think I am going to be alone in my whole life.
I think my parents and my big brother are worried about me cause I have not been social…
It’s just, i have tried EVERYTHING to make friends, they would always make me do favors for them which I kindly accepted. I was always kind to everyone and always had a smile on my face.
But behind my smile, I am screaming for help and crying.
Nothing mathers what I do.
I feel so alone, Before I liked being alone, it was a kind feeling, a feeling making me peaceful.
But now I am afraid of being alone in my whole life.
i have always wanted to be alone, never had many friends at all. maybe one or two. I’m sure you will find someone, at the right time. It just takes time. You will do something with your life. it will all get better in time